Practice is not “long sessions of focused musical training” these days…and, believe or not, I think it’s ok. I’ve always been hard on myself and I’m now reconsidering the multiple factors of my professional musical life. I also have a little cold, which greatly reduce my will and desire to play music in general…
These last two days, I practiced/played scales, triad pair, on a few tunes, part of transcriptions and compositions etc. It’s not very organized (yet focused and highly rewarding) and I really go with the flow of “what I feel” I should be playing/practicing.
Also, I think I’m in a phase where I “ask more questions” : What should I do? How should this-that sound? What should I practice? How’s my future looking ? etc. I’m reading different books and pondering my musical identity.
And that’s all happening in the gigs/rehearsals/sessions/teaching lifestyle I’ve been living for a while now. I guess it might be the spring time (birds singing!) that make me re-adjust my aim. And, to add to that, I know for a fact that I’ll stop playing 2 of my regular gigs for the summer (back in september…)
That makes a little jazz guy THINK ya know…
Anyways…
On the bright side : I’ve been composing new fresh tunes and playing sessions here and there. It’s great.
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And, now for the most exciting part :
I’m reading The Pat Metheny Interviews
book and I got to do something I think I’ve never done before in my life ; Honestly and Truthfully answer this question:
“What do you want to do?”
(which stems from “What do you love?”)
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I’m figuring that if I find the part of music that really, really “knocks me down” as Metheny says, motivation and productivity won’t even matter anymore! If I can find that little “gem” inside me, I won’t have to obsess over my practice routines (and decisions) and time spent playing and gigs, etc. Just go with the heart…
Meanwhile, I discovered that being organized (with great practice regiments for example) and staying true to yourself are very different aspects that should’nt be confused for one another.
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So here are my answers …
1- Lead my band (compose/record/concerts and tours)
2- Maintain and Update JazzGuitarLessons.net
It could have been only the first answer, but I wanted to include my “teaching reality” into the frame; it really does matter to me, especially these days.
Some of you may think “woah, that’s just too obvious”. Yes, every musician would naturally want to start a band and make it happen, I know. But on the other hand, I had never quite realized that I want to have my own band and write tunes, and tour and whatever comes with it.
My musical endeavors were pretty much always “zoomed in” my practicing that I was almost avoiding this big picture. You know, the music is out there, not in how many ways and fingerings you can apply the diminished scale (or what about that Coltrane solo, etc.) I never thought of it this ways; my thinking was usually “Practice more, get better, we’ll see later”.
I think for me the first step is to acknowledge that this is REALLY where I want to be in X number of years. It feels good to know that THIS is the big picture for me. Starting from there, I realized that the part that is lacking (the most) for my first goal to be achieved is composing. I need a huge repertoire of original tunes.
Hence my intense will to write new music.
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I hope that keeping that big picture in mind will feed my desire to write and practice daily. (Because I really need a reason to compose… what a pain!)